Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Day 88: Hiatus

Almost 33% done with this "yucky deployment" as Jack calls it. Seeing that green grow makes me happy. Hurry up time!

Where have I been?

I have been enjoying my life. (And avoiding talking about deployment, don't judge me). I have kind of separated myself from lots of people that I love very much... my family back home, friends here at Campbell and further away. If it's you I'm talking about and you are reading this, please don't take offense to my unavailability. I run, I'm a runner. I realized in the beginning of this deployment that talking makes me sad. So I stopped doing it. Though, I still really appreciate everyone's support and kind words and love. I can feel it from miles away! Just don't expect me to talk back. Smiling and nodding is probably as much as you will get from me, I hope that's okay.

How am I doing?

Ah, there it is. The most asked question of a military spouse during a deployment. Well, I guess you could say I'm hanging in there pretty well. I have more good days than bad days anymore. The nights are still really hard. Nights are when I don't get to talk to Jeff, and I'm alone while the boys are sleeping peacefully. Sometimes the quiet gets to me. Music is on almost constantly in my house, it helps a lot more than anything else I've found. My friends, Nicole and Stephen have been sent to me from heaven I swear. They take care of anything I need help with and they never let me eat dinner alone (which is a big deal in our family).

How are the boys?

Hehe. The boys are crazy as ever! The are eating almost constantly (uhm, mother-in-law who has done this before... why did you not warn me about how hard it is to keep any food in the house?). At three-and-a-half and 17 months, these "minions" keep my life interesting, exciting, full of laughter, and oh... they make me want to pull my hair out sometimes. Did I mention that? (But that's a rant for another day). How could you not love those silly faces?

Jack is loving school. His teacher, Mrs. Faith says that he's doing wonderful. He can (kind of) sing the alphabet song now. He counts to 10, sometimes further. His favorite thing to do at school is to play in the water table, so much so I have to pack two extra shirts for him each day. My favorite part about age 3 has been watching Jack learn and explain things in his own way. He says the funniest things, and he wants to know everything about everything. Per his request, I explained water towers to him a few weeks ago and he has been interested ever since. His favorite song is "the hey song" (AKA "Ho Hey" by the Lumineers) and he loves to sing and dance. I love the way he says things in his own special way. Just the other day I heard him telling Jonah to stay away from the Christmas tree and he said "Brother Allen you don't touch that, you hear?!" And he likes to ask questions now with "no?" on the end. Ex: "Thats a watertower, no?" or "I have school today, no?" He's such a goof, with such a big personality. I should start blogging more just to share his silliness with y'all.

Jonah is rotten. That's the best way I can explain his little personality. He recently began to cut all four canine teeth, or devil teeth, my own personal name for them. Jonah is all about Jonah right now. If he doesn't want to get dressed, it's a 10 minute squirmy, whiney, crying fest. He loooooooves to pull ornaments off the Christmas tree and his favorite words are "yesh" and "nawh". Take a guess at which one he uses more often (; Despite everything, he is still my cuddly baby boy. He has never really been attached to any sort of comfort toy until recently. His blanket never leaves his sight anymore. He likes to bring it to me and ask "baby up pwease" which is code for: mommy, I want you to pick me up, wrap me up in my blankey, and cuddle me tight. Oh, and no you can't do anything else, I want all your attention. K? Okay, thanks.

I have to be honest though. Jonah would much rather play with his big brother than mommy anymore. His least favorite part of the day is when Jack is at school. And if Jonah is not with me when I go to pick Jack up, Jack immediately says he wants his brother. It's adorable to me how much they love each other. Of course, they fight and get upset with each other. But I believe they are going to be the stability each other needs during the rest of this deployment and beyond. There's a saying floating around pinterest

"Sometimes being a brother is even better than being a superhero" 

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